Tuesday, November 25, 2008

why you should be excited for fall formal...


shortest count down

2 days till ohio for thanksgiving...always a pleasure
4 days till fall formal..fuckk yaaa

I'M SO EXCITED =] =] =]

Saturday, November 22, 2008


I'm the only reason why I feel like this
Responsible I am
I'm my own worst enemy
I beat myself up over and over, but for what?
To see if I can recover?
Pick myself up everyday, its the only way to make progress
I need to be happier
realize is what I need
everything seems foggy, but fog is passable, not a road block
There is always tomorrow, its all about the journey not the destination
I wish I just knew what my future has in store for me
sometimes it feels like the mountain has no peak
I guess it is only up hill from here
but as long as i have them by me side, everything will turn out fine...

Monday, November 17, 2008

maybe this is just me, i don't know

Music should not be forced
leave that to the million other things life throws at you
don't try and convince me to like a band or song
that I've tried listening to, that has failed to catch my ear.

When you insult someones music, that hurts.
that is a personal connection that only that one person can understand

don't get worked up over it either, there are plenty other moments for that.

Live and do what you want.
one of the hardest things in life is to think on your own, without being influenced by others.

oh i learned this during mass yesterday..

"Don't be a person of power, be a powerful person"

make sense?

Thursday, November 13, 2008

inspirational lyrics

Jack's Mannequin-Swim

You gotta swim
Swim for your life
Swim for the music
That saves you
When you're not so sure you'll survive
You gotta swim
And swim when it hurts
The whole world is watching
You haven't come this far
To fall off the earth

The currents will pull you
Away from your love
Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the dawn
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
Cracking me open yeah
I swim for brighter days
Despite the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in

You gotta swim
For nights that won’t end
Swim for your families
Your lovers your sisters
And brothers and friends
Yeah, you gotta swim
For wars without cause
Swim for the lost politicians
Who don't see their greed is a flaw

The currents will pull us
Away from our love
Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the dawn
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
Cracking me open yeah
I swim for brighter days
Despite the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
But I'm not giving in

You gotta swim
Swim in the dark
There's an ocean to drift in
Feel the tide shifting away from the spark
Yeah you gotta swim
Don't let yourself sink
Just follow the horizon
I promise you it's not as far as you think
The currents will drag us away from our love

Just keep your head above
Just keep your head above
Just keep your head above
Just keep your head above

Tuesday, November 11, 2008


you can't get over the fact that we are so different
you brought up this past summer
you told someone who drove around Chicago for a half hour to save your ass, that you didn't know if you should consider each other friends
you thought you were doing me a favor
you are one of the biggest shit talkers i know and not once have i ever called you out on it
or told your best friend that you sometimes can't stand her.
I called you a dumbass
thats it,
a dumbass
a word meaning" a stupid person"
that doesnt mean i hate you or don't want to be your friend
you went downtown with little money and then walked around at 11:00 pm by yourselves
if you think that is smart, then find me someone else who agrees with you.
when did you get so cocky?
i really would like to know

i'm sticking to my word
i'm not mad
i did not cry over you

writing is a way to express yourself
and set everything out in front of you
so it doesn't get trapped inside and eat you away

I want this to all make sense
so this is how i feel

kairos cd in my car

so i left it in and listened and fell in love with this song again..

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will

Monday, November 10, 2008

haha im a little slow...




Note to self: Don't stay stubborn and lonely forever
Confession: I rather die than fall vulnerable
Feeling right now: misses steeners and lanners
Goal: stop making up excuses...

what you have taken from me
could have easily been borrowed
instead of stolen.

wishes everyone would: just say what they want to say
loves: to argue
realized: the stupidity of others can bring laughter and tears

i also miss kairos...

my friends are real, like that of gold, which I could never give away

there are a few out there, i promise...

some people need no explanation. some people just get you. those are the ones worth keeping worth fighting for, getting in trouble with and never letting go of. Someone who is as twisted as you. intertwine till the end. people wanna know how I got the way I am, just look to my side. my partner in crime, my other half, my best mate and too close to be sisters. no one understands us, but no one needs to. as long as we have each other nothing can stand in the way...

Sunday, November 9, 2008

shopping carts and cop cars?

sounds like a song? yes

this is gods way of telling me that I should not be stuck in palatine
because i just get bored and do stupid stuff...like attempting to steal a shopping cart?
but thank god my car is small and it didnt fit...because 1 min later a cop car comes creeping up on us, while we are parked at randhurst mall...
yes scary shit...

me and my best friend get bored easily...but everytime we get into the car...an adventure awaits...

but anyway
i think this is a sign that i really need to be at shows everynight
they keep me out of trouble....really.

I'm getting this

I'm stoked

last night

hmm best concert yet?
even if my dumbass friends didnt bring enough money
and got lost in the city
then called us to drive around for a half hour and
pick them up.

this just proves nothing can ruin a perfect night at the metro
i hope to be doing this forever

my lone star girls are fucking crazy...

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Do what you are afraid to do...

*this is a rant, meaning it doesn't flow... sorry!

life sucks. It is a one way street. You are not allowed to stop and turn around and redo.
there is no map, written out for which way to stop or turn.
you never know if you are on the right road
The hardest thing to say to someone is always worthwhile
people don't make sense
people don't know what they want
because of fear or regret
people like facts.
It is harder to live on hopes and dreams
that is where we come to that infamous fork in the road
I always tell myself this,
You either try and get everything or don't bother and get nothing.
don't depend on anyone but yourself.
always be yourself
or else down the road you won't be happy and you will be surrounded by the wrong people.
people learn from mistakes.
we need a balance.
one person can make your day.
one qual conversation can make my week.
things won't get better unless you get off your ass and do it yourself
[obama can't make this change happen by himself, we the people need to change and take action, it is not only the president that needs to change, it is the people who live here]
america the ignorant
Change happens over a long long period of time.
don't expect anything and you will never be let down.

me thinking [i wish there were less educated voters rather then more uneducated voters in this country....sorry]

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

words of the wise

"some people just make you feel safe, like you can do anything"

holy pipes

for all ya acoustic lovers

oh the begining is in french? bahaha funny


thanks dan!

America the Ignorant


Monday, November 3, 2008

Hey you Dove

you are for peace?
but you want to rally and riot?

Stick to one side...
but then again,
you wouldn't know any better, you learn from the best...

I Love Your Existance


Perfection is defined when your heart beats next to mine, and time stands still for us.
My hand in your hair, and yours on my chest. Moments with you are my lifes best.

We crossed paths for a reason
The planets aligned in that particular season
Its clear to me that well eventually be

I love your existence
and I cant get enough

Your song is sung in your beautiful voice
My senses rush cause they have no other choice
I breathe you in, and I see through your eyes.
You are an angel in a beautiful disguise.

We crossed paths for a reason
The planets aligned in that particular season
Its clear to me that well eventually be

I love your existence
and I cant get enough

So pucker up and embrace the greatness, you get me high and erase my sadness.
I love your existence, and I cant get enough

a cup of tea = love <3

Sunday, November 2, 2008